The day is still dark.
The rain is still coming down.
I am up while the rest of the house sleeps: I should be sleeping too.
I definitely went to bed too late.
I’m facing my white wall, but today I am enjoying it. I’m enjoying its simplicity. I’m enjoying the ability to dream it to be whatever I want it to be.
Or I might keep it white. Just to remember.
This morning my coffee tastes extra great. I brew it now at 3am, so as not to wake the toddler.
The crunching and grinding of the beans doesn’t seem to bother her at that time — it wakes her at 5.
I learned that the hard way.
I still think about what I want to be when I grow up. I often wish there were 6 of me, so I wouldn’t have to choose.
Does anyone else think that way? Just me? Okay.
I changed my major a few times during college.
Well, I should clarify: I officially changed it a few times, but in my head I probably changed it every semester.
These choices varied from pre-med to psychology to exercise science to studio art.
[I told you God has a sense of humor.]
But looking back, there is one consistency for me in all of these choices. One consistent thread when I think about how I wanted to utilize each choice.
People.
I want to encourage others to dream.
And not just dream, but accomplish those dreams.
I don’t have answers to how. I haven’t figured out where and when. I know God has wired me this way. I just want to listen. I want to encourage. I want to see smiles of confidence.
I want to see dreams take flight.
And then somehow? I need to listen to my own encouragement. I need to listen to the encouragement of others. I need to listen to His still small voice.
I need to believe that my dreams are worth it too.
I need to believe that He can use me–yes, even silly me.
Sweet friend–the answers of how and when are already being answered. Because you’re already doing these things. You listen, you encourage, you give people smiles and confidence and make them feel loved and special. And maybe there are bigger things coming, and maybe there aren’t–but this season, you’re totally doing it. Best part? Not really you. HIM in you. He’s moving, and speaking through you. And it’s beautiful. It’s not just that he CAN use you, it’s that he IS using you.
Hi, Ashley, just read your comment, and I wholeheartedly agree! Love what you said about Him moving and speaking. Yes! So very true and so beautiful and amazing! :-)
believe it. your dreams are valid too! and i feel certain He will make all of them come true in some form or fashion. he knit you just the way you are. he knows your desires. it’s all just a matter of time!
3am coffee grinding??? that’s dedication!!!!
happy day girl!
Oh, Kacia, I LOVE this post. Just love it! I believe He made me with a desire to encourage others, as well. It makes my heart so happy to do so. That’s a huge part of my blog’s mission — to encourage others to live what I call an *inspired life.* Thank you for sharing these sweet words of encouragement and honesty this morning. I feel blessed to have discovered your blog through She Reads Truth. I’m excited to see how God will continue to work in my life through She Reads Truth and then Influence (which is a new discovery, as well). I pray that He would continue to use us both to encourage others to dream big, beautiful dreams, and I pray that He encourages us both to follow our own dreams, as well. Happy Friday to you! :-)
Love.
so. so. so. much alike– you and I. does my heart good and makes me smile on this chilly fall morning. pre-med~ check. psychology~ check. only then on to corporate communications and political science {what? what!} now on to motherhood and creativity and encouragement…my very favorite change of major to date.
This is an awesome post.
I’m still searching for what I want to be when I grow up – but then I realize, I want to be a woman that lives out God’s love and grace and truth in every single thing I do. Whether it’s journalism, exercise & sports science, creative writing or restaurant management (yeah, those are a few of my college majors ;) and most definitely in being a wife, mom & friend!
I have felt like I wish there were a few of me to go and do and taste all life has to offer. It can be hard to have to sit with a mind full of ideas and not to be able to flesh each one out. I often find that any idea can really get me excited and going if I give it enough time and space in my mind. I do wish you lived nearby because I could use a little chat with someone else all a buzz about creating, people, God, fashion, dreaming…coffee:)…glad I get to taste a bit of your friendship through the internet!
so. so. so. much alike– you and I. does my heart good and makes me smile on this chilly fall morning. pre-med~ check. psychology~ check. only then on to corporate communications and political science {what? what!} now on to motherhood and creativity and encouragement…my very favorite change of major to date.
It’s never too late for rebirth! I have been a grocery store clerk, a basketball coach, a journalist, an attorney, a cookbook author, a Sunday School teacher and I have no idea what’s next. He puts no limits on the plans He has for us, so we shouldn’t either!
You encourage me! So mission accomplished. ;)
Have a lovely weekend, friend.
Kacia, I love this. It’s so encouraging to know I’m not the only woman who doesn’t know what she wants to be when she grows up. I’ve been a creative assistant, marketing director, artist manager, author, blogger…and there’s part of all of it I’ve loved. Who knows what’s next? He does. And if I’ve learned one thing it’s that he truly does work it all together for our good. It’s amazing how one season always turns seamlessly into the next. Thanks for your thoughts. I wish we had the opportunity to connect at Influence. Next year!!
I totally understand….I still want to be about a million things. And constantly get myself in a hole when my “eyes are bigger than my stomach” (or my dreams are bigger than my time. Or my intentions are bigger than my energy). And though I get over extended…and stressed…and frustrated at times. I wouldn’t change it for anything. Dream big, little pig. (that is from a book by Kristi Yamaguchi. If she can be a figure skater AND a children’s book author, then I figure I can pretty much be anything I want.)