I always dreamed of getting married.
I imagined walking down the aisle.
I imagined a near-perfect life.
I imagined bliss and babies and smiles and laughter.
I imagined never getting frustrated.
I imagined an always-clean house.
I imagined the void of desiring all these things to be filled once I said
I do.
I’m not going to say these things aren’t true, because all of these dreams take place in my life and marriage.
Our life isn’t perfect, but it’s perfectly us.
The bliss, the babies, the smile, the laughter: they are all a part of the big, beautiful picture.
The frustration? It happens, and it’s usually my mess and junk and selfishness causing it.
And my house. The clean. I’ve decided that clean is a relative term.
But that void? That’s where I had it wrong.
In my head I understood that my identity needed to be found in Him alone, yet I found myself relying on my husband and life’s satisfaction for all these things.
So easy to say, yet so difficult to do. And do consistently. Every day.
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This is an old post I found hidden in my drafts. I’m not quite sure when I wrote it, or why I let it sit.
Yesterday evening when I glanced it, it made me pause.
It challenged me in a new way. As if someone else had written it.
I needed to hear it again.
I always will.
I needed to hit publish.
So I did.
Beautiful words!
I’ve actually never desired to get married. Never fantasized about it. Not even as a child.
I love that we are all so different in those little ways, Vanessa – you know? This is the worst story EVER that I’m about to tell – my husband told me that he personifies letters, numbers and animals. I cannot even begin to understand this feat. Just can’t!
I really couldn’t have said it better myself. It’s so easy to love our husbands so much that it’s almost akin to the love we have for God. So easy to get lost in it – but what you wrote is exactly what we need to hear day in and day out!
so thankful for you, Heather. you seriously encourage me so much
i have done this with some of my posts as well! funny – i think sometimes we post on GOD’S TIME! these words are inspired. HIM ALONE. they have touched my heart today. thanks for this beautiful message, Kacia! XO
you would be overwhelmed by the number of drafts I have just sitting there! OY!
Such truth! Thanks for sharing. I love your heart.
xo!
wait, does this mean the shop opens tomorrow?! without a passcode? because I have a few items on my wish list already…
Yes ma’am :) slowly but surely! Promise!
Love this, I would totally buy one!
Thanks Melanie!
Wow, it’s so wonderful when our own words encourage us. Thanks for sharing!
They really encouraged me as if I was reading them for the first time. So thankful for moments like that!
Yes! My heart resonates. Your words and heart make me feel like I’m not the only one. Hitting publish was a good thing. Thank you.
You are not the only one!!! don’t believe that for a second!