Funny how you can go through life and still have so many eye opening moments about who you are as a child, spouse, parent, sibling, friend. Realizing that my perfectionism and struggle to feel worthy of love is so much more than small facets of my life–realizing that it affects my relationships, especially with my Heavenly Father.
One of my most favorite books–a book I should read over and over again–is Abba’s Child, by Brennan Manning.
These words are reminders that I need desperately.
“Hope knows that if great trials are avoided great deeds remain undone and the possibility of growth into greatness of soul is aborted.”
“we unwittingly project onto God our own attitudes and feelings toward ourselves… But we cannot assume that He feels about us the way we feel about ourselves — unless we love ourselves compassionately, intensely, and freely. ”
“While the impostor draws his identity from past achievements and the adulation of others, the true self claims identity in its belovedness. We encounter God in the ordinariness of life: not in the search for spiritual highs and extraordinary, mystical experiences but in our simple presence in life.”
“Accepting the reality of our sinfulness means accepting our authentic self. Judas could not face his shadow; Peter could. The latter befriended the impostor within; the former raged against him.”
“In a futile attempt to erase our past, we deprive the community of our healing gift. If we conceal our wounds out of fear and shame, our inner darkness can neither be illuminated nor become a light for others.”
“Define yourself radically as one beloved by God. This is the true self. Every other identity is illusion.”